my life these past 11 months :) Aidan Joseph Sirtout <3
i had my baby and he is healthy! his name is Aidan joseph sirtout. he just turned 11 months!!! i haven’t checked my tumblr in so long. and i have so much built up feelings. there has to be a way to take the edge off instead of drinking or getting high. i think it’s because of my rocky relationship with my boyfriend, my hyperactive son, and the shitty person i’ve become. i don’t like myself anymore. i’m not happy.
I love my #marine & #baby boy :)
this is johnny’s first actual weekend at his new assigned base. he gets to come home every day but it’s tiring to drive to peoria all the time. yesterday was stupid. he was a minute late for formation at 5 and they really didn’t do anything. he got home around 11 and had to be up at 4 this morning to get ready and start the day there. he should be coming home today around 6. then he wants to sleep all night until he has to get up at 4 again the next day.
it’s friday and i think they have their CFT today. just a lot of physical training. it’s also the second day of the illinois state fair.. but johnny will be too tired to want to go. i want to go only because of the food. there is no way that they are going to let an pregnant girl (at 8 1/2) months ride even on the farris wheel. no way. i kind of don’t want to go because it requires a lot of walking :( but it’ll be the last time i see my best friends before they head of to their prestigious universities.
today i’m finalizing my classes at Lincoln Land Community College. hopefully i can get online classes so they’d be easier to study with the baby and all.
i’m nervous. so nervous. but i know God is helping me through all this. lets hope i can be a good mother and student and daughter and girlfriend and whatever is expected of me. lets hope.
it took about a week to move all my stuff and johnny’s stuff in. it was hard because i couldn’t help much being 8 months pregnant. i could’ve easily done half the stuff i wasn’t allowed to do. we finished our room today and it looks amazing! we still have to do the guest room. the basement has the kitchen, living room, and dining room. we put our flat screen in, the couch put together, everything is falling into place! omg. i am almost done with the nursery, but i want to wait until my family baby shower so i can finalize it. i’m so excited to start my new life with my marine and my soon to be born baby son. pictures of the house up soon!
he graduates MOS school tomorrow. i told him i wouldn’t be able to go because of work. welll i’m just going to call in and leave around 11 tomorrow. his graduation is at 4 so i’ll make it in time to surprise him. his family is leaving at 10 but i’ll just meet them down there. a 3 1/2 hour drive is nothing. but i’m excited. going to wash my car in the morning, fill up my gas tank, and get food. then offfff i go. wish my luck <3